We already know I’m falling. But I can catch myself so easily. I’m strong, but I just need to know. Will I get hurt? Or do you have feelings too? I just want to know, but at the same time I don’t. What if it’s what I don’t want to hear. I can take it but right now I don’t know if I can. I’ll just stick to my dreams where you wait every night.

You came all the way up here. To see me. Why? Explain it to me. I want to believe it but you are way to good for me sweetheart. Sweetheart….I know you must call every girl that but I still get the chills. My legs go weak, my words don’t come out right. You make me go insane. I feel so safe with you, like the world can just melt away and I wouldn’t notice. You are my fire, you make life interestiong, you give me something more to look forward to. I just wish I knew how you felt. <3

I can’t believe I fell for this. AGAIN. I really thought this could end up somewhere. Maybe, just maybe he would fall for me like I was falling for him. But yeah there’s always that one thing where you don’t know much about his ex, and you two USED to be really close…and now she’s mad at you. I left years ago and I never got a phonecall or a visit and not a text until FRESHMEN YEAR. And yet I’m supposed to know that you were really serious?! I’m supposed to know that you aren’t over him, when the one who tells me this doesn’t even know? WHY? Why do I always get caught in the situation where I’m the bad one. I didn’t mean for anyone to get hurt. I just wanted to feel happy…to feel loived….for once. And I’m sorry for that. </3